Uncertain
I have never been more uncertain of myself
of that I am certain
what a powerful amplifier
this uncertainty
treading into dangerous and uncharted territory
senses heightened to an unnatural state
every stumble a fall,
every blemish a deformity,
every remark a damning condemnation
it is during these moments
that perseverance becomes most precarious
futility reigns supreme
in the face of such
oppression
and
suffocation
I can only watch, helpless
while it latches onto
everything
hold on for dear life
to foundations, wind and water
hold on for dear life
lest all that is
crumble away
remaining only in distant memory
Disappearing into the Wind, 2019
18′ x 24′
pastel and charcoal on drawing paper
State of Mind, 2019
16″ x 20″
Oil on Canvas